Have no fear secrets will be found out!
Secrets are nasty things; they eat away inside of you and prevent peace. Until recently I had buried a secret because of its shame. I thought the incident my fault for being eighteen, naive and drunk. Recently, God used a book to reveal that secret and begin the healing process.
These are the facts
1. God hates secrets.
2. God will expose them when the time is right.
3. God only wants the very best for us.
Ecclesiastes 12:14 (KJV)
For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.
How the book affected me
When I started reading the book, I thought the actions of the protagonist unsavoury. A wariness took over; this man oozed an unhealthy attachment. He believed he owned his girlfriend. This effect was not dissimilar to my situation. Indeed once engaged, my boyfriend thought he had access to anything he wanted. Relationships were at the time a mystery to me; I trusted my fiancé, believing him safe. I did not see the signs. We drank a lot in our spare time and because I never had a hangover afterwards the warning bells were silent.
Sadly I worshipped drink instead of God.
Deuteronomy 11:16 (KJV)
Take heed to yourselves, that your heart be not deceived, and ye turn aside, and serve other gods, and worship them.
At the time I thought my fiance gentlemanly walking me back to my digs. Unfortunately, his actions proved far from it.
A secret revealed
As the book continues the main character tells of her secrets as they unfold in her memory. The sudden dawning that her relationship had become violent far earlier than she had initially remembered haunted her. The young lady became sickened and frightened by the revelation. And she blamed herself!
Reading the account, I gasped relating to her words. I too had been a victim and kept secret the forced attack. Tears rolled down my cheek, and my husband asked why. Could I tell him? For a few moments, I prayed to God asking for clarity. A soft voice said “Yes”.
James 1:5 (KJV )
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
Taking a deep breath and trusting God I shared my story. Secrets need to be shared, opened up to the light. My husband hugged me and said, “Thank you for telling me.” My heart felt lightened immediately. God had answered my fears through that moment.
Isaiah 30:18-19 (KJV)
And therefore will the LORD wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the LORD is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him.
For the people shall dwell in Zion at Jerusalem: thou shalt weep no more: he will be very gracious unto thee at the voice of thy cry; when he shall hear it, he will answer thee.
Thankfully God showed me in time that my choice of that man needed revising, and I broke off the engagement.
An awesome God
How awesome God is, He knew when I would read this book and be ready to deal with the contents. There are no secrets with God; our lives are transparent in his sight. At last, I can be free from an act that now I know was not my fault.
Isaiah 41:10 (KJV)
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Do you have a secret that God wants to expose so that you can receive healing – look into your heart and be brave?
Pray with me
Father God, you know all things, reveal to me any areas that require your mercy in my life. Expose any secrets that are holding me back from your Grace. Please take (my secret) and pour your precious blood on to it so that I may become whole again in Jesus’ name through His sacrifice on the Cross. I want to be set free Father, come Lord Jesus and refine my life in You. Amen.